Im single again. And let me tell you...it SUCKS! Im just not very good at this getting dumped thing. I thought i wouldnt care but i do. And we only dated for like what two weeks maybe a month. She called me on Wednesday of last week at 12:45 pm to say that she wanted to just be friends and that we can still hang out etc,etc.,etc. You know the normal. Well its been two weeks and neither one of us has talked to each other. Which always happens. I figure if someone doesnt want to call me why the hell should i bother with them. It makes me wonder if she has the same problem. Which i have to say is going to make my Navy meeting all the more uncomfortable for me as evereybody goes and by everybody i mean her.

But i might not be making the Navy meeting next Thursday anyways on account of me being in JAIL! Yes i Jeremy Bean am going to jail. And it was totally my idea. I found out i have 4 warretns for unpaid fucking tickets which i didnt even remember getting in the first place. Or i would have paid them. I was just going to set up a payment plan but bad luck have it something ELSE happened to prevent me from doing that. My account has been overdrawn by $611. God damn the luck that has befallen me this last two weeks. My insurance was deducted from my account when i didnt have enough money in it. And me being the money spender i am made some purchases throughout the day at Hastings that caused my overdraft fee to be $312. I tried explaining that the insurance shouldnt have been taken out on account of the low amount of money i have in it but i got nothin. So i have a month to take care of it or i get bad credit. And nobody wants bad credit.

Well anyways to sum it up, ive had a really shitty two weeks and i only see it getting worse. With ever happy moment for me there are ten bad ones to even out the score.

I hate my life.... 

Well i finally broke down and got a myspace. Im suprised it took me so long. Its pretty cool. Ashley got me interested in it. I was watching her with hers and like it so i made my own. You should check it out. Id tell you how to look it up but i dont know how so im gonna leave a comment on everyones myspace that i found so that could take a while.

In other new i now have a job at Hastings. TCIM blew too much well everything to stay so i got another job. Im excited. I mean come on its Hastings.

Well thats all i have so im going back to myspace to figure out how to make mine cool. This could take a while. Later gators.

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Okay, heres the update. Im working at TCIM now. Shittiest job in the world. Well second shittiest. I still say cleaning out portapottys is the shittiest job (HaHAHA). Well anyways i work with Diane Hart which is cool. Its wierd, the people that didnt talk to me in high school talk to me now and the people i did talk to in high school must have vanished from the face of the earth. Of course that my problem. I didnt bother looking. but all is good now cause i got a girlfriend. And she is the greatest girlfriend a guy like well me could ask for. She loves the same things i do and she actually makes me want to do well in life. She makes me want to be the person im not. I work harder now and exercise almost regularly. With any other girl all i want to do is hang with her and then go home home and watch tv. With Ashley after i hang out with her i go home and go for a walk/run or do some exercises. No matter what time it is. Im even teaching myself to play guitar. And im actualluy learning.

On another note. My shipoff date is drawing nearer. It hasnt been that long since i signed up but i gotta say im freaking out. I still dont know if i have what it takes but damn it all if im not gonna try as hard as i can to make it. I dont want to be the guy that cant make it. Im tired of being the guy that cant make it. im tired of quitting when im not good at it. I have to say when i was in band the playing came naturally. I mean i had to practice but i didnt practice often and i was still pretty good. And now im not really good at anything and it pisses me off and then i quit. Well no more. i will not quit anymore. I gotta say this new me is great. Im a better person. And i got the worlds best girlfriend. Shes the greatest most awesome person and she thinks im a great guy too. And it feels great. I havent even had a depression session in about a month and a half. Im doing better every day.

Well im gonna go now. Im gonna go cure cancer or genital herpes or something so later gators.

Gotta keep this short and sweet. Me and Ashley are dating now. Oh yeah! And i got fired from Blockbuster. Oh no! And i work at TCIM now. Oh no! But it doesnt matter cause im still getting in shape. My old body is slowly forming into the body that i always wanted. Running has actually become fun now. Pushups are still a bitch though. Sit ups are okay but i prefer to run. And by run i mean jog for a while until my lungs collapse and walk for a while and then jog a little more.

Well thats all for now. I will be more detailed when i have the chance. Later gators.

Well guys, i got in. I am going to be a seaman. Technically im going to be an airman. I took the ASVAB test and scored an 82 on it, which was the highest of the recruits for the Navy that were there. Of course there were only five but still its nice to finish on top. My job is going to be AE. That is Avionics Electronics. Which means i work on plane's electrical stuff. I dont really know much else considering i literally swore in less than a day after talking to the Navy recruiter for the first time. Actually i didnt even meet my recruiter until 30 minutes before swearing in. I just went up to the recruiting station to talk about the Navy and the next thing i know im on a shuttle bus on my way to take the ASVAB test. The funny thing was that i thought i was going to take the ASVAB test and go home. But after the test they loaded us up on a bus and took us to a hotel where we were to stay until the next day when we get our physical, get our jobs and ship dates, and swear in. It was a very crazy day indeed. I ship out on November 28th which is good because it gives me plenty of time to get into shape. Ive been doing a crazy amount of sit ups and push ups. Ive been so sore and tired the past week. And the best part is that i love it. I love the soreness and tiredness all the time. It means im finally doing what ive never done before. Pushing myself. I hated doing all this crap before. But now its kind of nice. i know that before i leave i will be in better shape than ive ever been in before.

Now enough talk about the Navy. I have better news. Jeremy's got himself a girl. Id add "friend" to the end of girl, but technically im still single. But im single in the way where i wont be single much longer. Yup me and Ashley are doing good. She is by far the coolest girl i have ever met (sorry other girls out there). Everything about her is awesome. She is way cooler than Laura was (you remember her). She blows Laura out of the water. And the great thing is that Ashley is in the Navy as well. I know some of you are probably thinking, "Jeremy you did not just join the Navy for a girl." and the answer is no my friends i did not. Ashley is just a big fat super awesome bonus. of course it really doesnt matter cause she ships off in August and then I ship off in November. By the time she gets out of bootcamp i go in. And when im out shes gonna be long gone. Which sucks so that means i need to have as much fun with her as i possibly can. And i promised myself and i promise all of you that when she leaves i will stay strong and not do the crazy thing i normally do. You know that whole depressed everything sucks thing. As a matter of fact i am going to use that to work harder towards the getting in shape thing. Im not worried...not at all...i will be okay this time...i hope. No! I know i will be fine. And you know why i will be fine. Cause ive got friends like you to help me through it. To electronically push me to finish what i started and not back out. Not now and not ever. Cause the old run from everything Jeremy is a thing of the past. The new and way more improved airman Jeremy will do whatever it takes to make it. Even if it means sacrificing everything i have. Which it wont but if it did i would sacrifice everthing.

So ladies and gentlemen without any furthur stuff to add i am off to make me a better person. So wish me luck and pray that i can do it. Which i can. Because i wont let myself fail. And neither will any of you guys. Whoever is left on this blogy thingy. So goodbye for now. And be prepared next time to meet a newer better me.